A personal memoir exploring trauma, depression, and survival. From the first encounter with darkness at eighteen to decades of therapy, this essay traces the enduring impact of assault, self-reflection, and the daily work of living under the weight of mental illness.

We once moved together like three points in orbit. Time shifted the gravity, distance grew, and I learned that love does not mean holding on.

A personal account of living with treatment-resistant bipolar I disorder, CPTSD, anxiety, and trauma. Explore the physical, emotional, and mental realities of depression, the challenges of survival during December, and the resilience required to endure when hope feels out of reach.

I AM. I AM. I AM. Project is a way of understanding who I am when no one else is in the room. The project is a personal excavation. A return to honesty after years of speaking in borrowed language.

I knew, eventually, that if I were to be true to myself, I had to see it through. Not because anyone was waiting, not because there was a promise of recognition or even understanding. Simply because the work needed to exist, even if its audience was only me.